Ever since then I've really struggled to not overeat, especially when I'm anxious. When my anxiety is really bad and I'm in a panic mode it feel like I am choosing between hurting myself physically (cutting or even suicide) and eating. I feel like I'm eating to save my life. The world closes in and all I can see is darkness, it's like I can only see the problem right in front of me and my decision to eat is really a choice to live.
I gained a total of 100 lbs total and I didn't feel like I had power over it. At one point I went on a gluten free diet for 3 months, another time I went on a sugar fast for 7 days and then for 2 months after that I only ate sugar once a week. Even trying everything I knew how to do I was still gaining weight. I didn't understand it and I needed help.
The first step for me was to heal from my emotional pain. This is an ongoing process but I met with a therapist and started to face my problems. I was burying my feelings and fears and that wasn't healthy. I believe that we need to care for every aspect of our health to be a whole and healthy person. I wasn't taking care of my physical health by overeating and eating too much sugar and fat. My emotional health was a wreck since I wasn't facing my problems. Because I felt shame about my weight and unhappiness I didn't want to be around people, so my social health was lacking. I felt my spiritual life was in order but having one good aspect of my health can't make up for 3 unhealthy aspects. I began to heal.
Two years ago I discovered juicing. I learned how the cells of our bodies can get sick and then they don't function properly. By juicing with fresh fruits and vegetables I'm giving nutrients to my cells and helping them operate at full capacity. My mind feels clearer when I juice. Juicing to lose weight works. The hardest part is getting started. You need to find the best juicing recipes and experiment with them. Find things that you like. Juicing should be fun.
Once I started juicing and eating healthier I began to lose weight. I lost 40 lbs in 8 months. It felt great. Everyone is different and you should find something that works for you, but the truth is we all need to work to take care of ourselves. Without health we have nothing.
Do research on how to juice. There are lots of resources, my favorite being everythingaboutjuicing.com There are juicing recipes, stories, and tips.